damaged

I am

ill

broken

damaged

dead inside.

I lost the will to love

to believe.

I am

dead inside.

saving grace

Meredith Grey said that we should make no apologies of how we choose to repair ourselves when we get broken. I agree with her.The choices that we make in life, both good and bad helped shape what we are today. I've been broken many times. I went pass the "heartbroken phase". It wasn't just my heart. It was me. I was broken. And there were many ways in which I chose to repair myself. I don't regret having been through the rollercoaster ride of options because those days are one of the best things that ever happened to me. And that ride led me to an option that I never thought I'd choose. To accept God's saving grace that is new every morning, through His one and only son, Jesus Christ. It's the best option I've chosen so far and I know that it's going to remain that way. Jesus repaired what I, my family problems, and ex-boyfriend broke. He made me new. And not only did He repair me, He showers blessings upon me and my family every single day. He repaired my heart. It belongs to Him now. He's guarding it, keeping it safe, and setting it right. To whom, when, where is He going to give my heart? I don't know. But I'm certain that everything will be more than perfect. He is faithful. He always has been.

I make no apologies of how I chose to repair myself. I accepted Christ, I chose life. There's no better option than that.

my own version of I WANT A GUY LIKE THIS

I want a guy who can love me for me

With or without make up

With or without my red nail polish

Whether or not I’m having a bad hair day

Whether or not I’m all dolled up

I want a guy who can accept that

I can’t live without perfume

I can’t live without a salon

I can’t live without Starbucks coffee

I can’t live without chocolate and fried chicken

I can’t live without Chinese and Japanese food

I love books

I love movies

I love having conversations over coffee

I want a guy who can respect me for

My beliefs

My values

My morals

My relationship with God

My relationship with my family and friends

My past

I want a guy who can understand that

I need my own space

I’m a woman with very strong character

I’m independent yet I need to feel loved

We need to learn how to grow together and apart

Money is the last issue that I want to deal with

I want a guy who can

LOVE

ACCEPT

RESPECT and

UNDERSTAND

The woman that I am

No more no less.